A green pine is in the east garden,
But the many grasses obscure it.
A frost wipes out all the other species,
And then I see its magnificent tall branches.
In a forest people do not notice it, but
Standing alone, it is a miracle.
I hang a jug of wine on a cold branch;
Then stand back, and look again and again.
My life spins with dreams and illusions.
Why then be fastened to the world?

- T’ao Ch’ien

Sometimes our world is so small that we can't see the bigger things around us. In western culture, the saying goes, "You can't see the forest for the trees." Despite having this vast tool called the internet, we live in very small worlds. Sometimes we come out of our shells and realize that there's this entire world out there. I try to keep up with world events, and not just those that happen in the Middle East. Believe it or not, I pay more attention to what's going on in the U.K. than I do what's going on in the Gaza strip. But, what about the worlds we live in? Are we really in tune with what's going on with the people around us? Our friends? Our families? Are we really aware of what's going on with our own lives? There are so many things that obscure our awareness of even our own lives–work stress, relationship stress, television, the internet, video games, sports...  We don't pay all that much attention to ourselves and our inherent worth or goals.  We don't take the time to address our emotional states.

Sometimes something comes along that changes all of that.  All these external things fall by the wayside and the "big picture" becomes clear.  Usually these events are either catastrophic or so intense that we cannot help but ignore them.  They can consume our entire world and we may not be able to see anything but that one singular event.  It's huge, so much bigger than our own world.  It might be finding that special person–or losing them.  Whatever it may be, it may consume your entire world and you may be swimming in your own dreams or illusions.  I know that sometimes I get stuck there, but I always manage to find my way back to reality.  I'm a very grounded kind of person, but not everyone is like that.  Some people just have their heads in the clouds, which is fine for a while, so long as they don't either do something that harms themselves or let themselves be taken advantage of.

So what do we do?  What can we do but live in the moment, mindful of the future and yet with an eye to the past.  Keep your mind on what it is that you're doing and where it is that you're going.  Know where your life is going and where you want it to go.

This is going to be a [very] short update.  For those of you who do not already know, I was contacted two Mondays ago and offered a freelance job as a writer for White Wolf Publishing's Exalted line.  Due to NDA's, I cannot give details on exactly what I'm working on, but suffice it to say that I'm going to be a published writer with my name in the credits of at least two Exalted products coming out in 2009.  I am very excited about this opportunity and can't wait to share the work of my brain with people all around the world.  I am close to completion of my word-count and those I'm working with are quite pleased with my contribution.  That is all for now.

I am going to reserve my optimism for the moment and just say a few words that I've said to others, but haven't managed to communicate with most of the people I know.  With regard to yesterday's decision for the next phase of this country's leadership; if you feel that the wrong choice was made, I encourage you to put a hold on your judgment for the next four years.  At the end of that time, please feel free to vote your conscience as so many have done in the 2008 election season.  That having been said, I am relieved and heartened at the turnout in this year's election process.  There has been so much apathy toward our own leadership in past years that it's no wonder our government was asleep at the wheel when it came to this country's financial stability.  Our leadership has been so timid that we've convinced ourselves that there are villains everywhere that we must do everything we possibly can to defeat, including destroying ourselves and our own people to do so.  We must make every sacrifice (with the added "without regard for what that may do to our own people" politely left unspoken).  I think that our leaders need to remember that they are only where they are because of the common person who allows them to be there.  If they get the message that people need things to get better and are no longer willing to live with limping along, then the American People will have truly been heard.  It can no longer be "business" or "politics as usual".  None of us can afford to quietly stagnate.

That's what I felt like I had to convey, so I'll step off the soapbox now.  I bid you all peace and patience.

At Waterfall Temple

These peaks gather like snowy swords,
the waterfall a curtain of ice on the cliff.
Gibbons in the tree tops toy with clouds.
among blood-red azaleas.
The cuckoo sings till it bleeds;
from deep in caves, wind gods scream.
Compared to the hearts of people,
these mountain wilds are tame.

- Chang K’o chiu (1265-1345)

Vivid imagery.  Do we think in such terms, such patterns?  Do our brains process the world around us in details of color and texture in a conscious sense?  When we think of favorites, we do, but what about all the other times in our lives?  Why would that be important, anyway?  What would be so important about experiencing all the colors, flavors, textures and sensations that life has to offer?

Now how does that all compare to your own life?

I have gone through my phone's list of numbers and deleted all the numbers that are no longer valid, or I don't call, or they haven't called me in at least a year.  If I deleted someone's number by mistake, I apologize, but next time you call me, I'll have it.  If you are concerned that I may have deleted your phone number, but would still like to keep in touch with me, please either call or text my phone, or leave me your phone number here.  All comments will be screened.

For those of you whose phone numbers I never had, but you'd appreciate a call now and again from me anyway, feel free to put up your numbers here, too.  Again, all comments will be screened.

The mountain air sparkles as the sun sets,
Birds in flocks return together.
In these things there is a fundamental truth,
But when I start to explain it, I lose the words.

- Ryokan (1758-1831)

It's strange that this is the zen for this entry, because if I try to explain it, I'll lose the words as well.  Did you ever have that feeling?  When there's something you just want to get out, but you don't have the words?  I get that every now and again.  I'm good with words.  I'm good at explaining what's going on in my head.  Not everyone else is all that good at understanding what it is that I say.  I have a tendency to be very literal and try to over-explain things just to be clear, and as with anything, people look for what it is that you're not saying.  Except...  I said what I wanted to say.  So there's the miscommunication that occurs when people try to read things into what you're trying to express that you're not actually saying.

But that's all beside the point.  Sometimes you don't need words to express a moment.  I have a habit of doing physical things to express my thoughts.  I clean things when I'm upset - my father pointed that out to me years ago and it's been a very true observation my entire life.  When I want to express affection, I squeeze things twice in rapid succession; I've done that with all of my girlfriends and they ask me why.  It's just something I do.  Squeeze their hand twice, it's as simple as that.  My gestures and facial expressions carry a thousand words for those who look and listen.

That's also beside the point.  Sometimes you just need to experience things for yourself.  In that experience, you will find wisdom and enlightenment.

So, I'm updating my Amazon.com wishlist tonight on a whim; removing things I bought for myself and adding new things.  I don't think anyone's ever bought me anything off my wishlist on there before.  But, I'm adding new things to the wishlist and I come across something that disturbs me...



Here's a better picture; a screenshot from Amazon.com's website (there's a link to this below).



The artwork looks strangely familiar to me...  Something like Looking for Group...



or...




There's no mention of Lar DeSouza working on the artwork for this book on Amazon.com, and they've got a fair bit of material from inside the book on Amazon (check it out) including the inside of the cover, the back cover, index and table of contents.  No mention of these characters that look exactly like Lar's artwork.  So, I messaged Lar and Sohmer on their forum and asked if they knew about it, since it's distributed both in the United States and Canada.  I probably should have bought Lar and Sohmer a copy and sent it to them, but that would probably be a very bad way to inform them of this if their work (mainly Lar's artwork) was stolen.

So that first picture has characters that look strangely like Richard and Krunch from the webcomic, who also could be generic looking characters from World of Warcraft if you designed your characters on the game to look like them.  Benny and Pella (or in this case, Pella's twin brother) have no analogies in WoW so far as I know, especially Benny.

If Lar and Sohmer knew nothing of this book being printed and sold with their work on the front cover, I can imagine them to be way more pissed than I am right now.

Update: This is legitimate.  Lar drew the picture for their book.  Everything is good.

The wind is still, but blossoms fall,
Birds sing in the quiet of the mountain.
This is Kannon’s wondrous wisdom:
Ah!

- Ryokan (1758-1831)

Things happen. No matter what, things happen. We miss most of what's going on around us because these days we live in such a vacuum despite having the best communication network in history. We can reach each other at virtually any time should we choose to do so. We have cell phones, text messaging, the internet, UPS... Despite this extensive communications network, there are things that are going on all around us that we either don't know about, or we just don't notice. We're disconnected from each other, despite this glorious communications network. We're disconnected via the internet, the phone, the text messaging. We don't even know what's going on a thousand miles away, let alone what's going on in the next town, or our own towns.  We don't know what's going on with our friends or our families.  Not the whole story.  People hide behind each other, or the façade they put up in front of themselves to hide from the rest of the world.  There is so much mistrust and fear of everyone and who we really are.  I've seen it up close and personal.  I've seen what lies on the other side of the mask, and I'm not just talking about what's behind the mask.  I've seen what's on the underside of the mask; what it's made of.  I've seen the ugliness of the people behind their masks and the ugliness of the mask itself.  Sometimes, I'm not sure which is worse.

But this is all symptomatic of the distance between people.  We don't trust each other because we can't see what's going on.  All too often, we don't see each other because we're not looking.  That's the problem a former friend and I both had when we looked at each other.  We weren't really seeing who the other person was.  We all do this, no matter how hard we try not to.  We do it to someone we think we know because we didn't take the time to properly listen to and understand them.  We saw what we wanted to see when we thought we were seeing behind the masks we all wear.  So what's the solution?

You've got to learn to pay attention.  You've got to think about the things that you see, that you hear, that you feel.  Trust your intuition, but don't let other things cloud your judgment; when you listen to that intuition.  Take note of the things that you see and hear.  Write them down in a little pocket notebook if you have to.  Be aware of your surroundings and of what and who people are, despite what they may claim to be or to not be.  Understand why things are, or at least try to.  If you can't, then just accept them and move on.  "The wind is still, but blossoms fall."  We all know why they fall, and it's not because the wind is still or it's blowing.  We see the blossoms falling, but do we even stop to think about the wind?  Do we listen to the birds singing when we gaze up at the majesty of the mountain?  We distract ourselves with our focused observations.  We focused in on technology over humanity.  If you can't see how that's a problem, pick up a newspaper or turn on the evening news broadcast.  You'll see myriad ways in which we've done ourselves harm simply because we focused on one thing over another.  So many misunderstandings and so few attempts to correct for those misunderstandings and mistakes in judgment.

But, this passage may not speak to you that way.  Just because I've given you one interpretation that has personal significance tonight does not mean that's the main, or even the only, interpretation.  This passage may say something to me tomorrow, or six months from now, or six years from now.  That's the beauty in this poetry.  It still speaks to me after the passage of time and I learn something new from it each time I read it again.  Do you dare to believe what your heart and soul tell you of this?

I found this through lartist and found it to be awesome! I feel like I should use this for some folks with minor modifications as necessary.

Dear S,

You have an overdrawn relationship balance. Your request for moving help is denied. The reason for denial appears below:

ERROR 42C: Applicant has exceeded the allowed number of promised and unrequited favors for the last eighteen (18) consecutive months.
ERROR 94A: Applicant has unreturned borrowed items more than six (6) months overdue.
ERROR 98D:Applicant has not made any positive contribution to the relationship in the past twelve (12) months.

We understand that this negative friendship balance may be an oversight. Please make contributions to the relationship to correct this problem. Contributions may be made in the form of dramaless, unselfish interaction of any kind, including, but not limited to: meaningful conversations that don't center on you and your life exclusively, phone calls when you DON'T want something, a thoughtful gesture, and/or a sincere apology.

Also, please note that the Friendship Plan is not fully compatible with the Utterly Self-Involved Package. Under the Friendship Plan, the Utterly Self-Involved Package is only available on a short-term basis with a positive friendship balance. (Extended access to the USIP may be permitted, at our discretion, under extenuating circumstances.) To continue uninterrupted access to the Friendship Plan, you must unsubscribe All Drama All The Time and All About Me, and resubscribe to Adult Behavior 101, Get A Grip, and How Not To Die Utterly Alone Because You're So Crazy No One Can Stand You.

If your relationship balance is not significantly improved in the next ninety (90) days, your relationship status will be downgraded from Basic Probational Friend to Family Functions Only. Please note that any attempt to turn this notice into further drama will result in immediate and irrevocable demotion. Reinstatement to full-fledged Friend with all associated privileges cannot be granted until the relationship balance is equalized again. We regret to inform you that Best Friend status is no longer an option for you due to your long-term inactive status.

Sincerely,
Management.

Found the letter located here.

I found it amusing.  I hope you do as well.

Happy New Year, everyone.

It's been a long time since I wrote any of my thoughts on zen poetry, so without any further preamble, I give you Cuddly Panda Bear Zen™.

South and north, sharing
A single mountain gate,
Above and below, two temples
Both named T’ien-chu.
Dwelling therein is
An old dharma master,
Built tall and skinny
Like a stork or swan.
I do not know what
Practice he engages in,
But his green eyes
Reflect the mountain valleys.
Just looking into them
Makes one feel fresh and pure,
As if all one’s baneful vexations had been cleansed.

- Su Shih (1073)

South and north, above and below. These are opposites, are they not? Yet, they share a single mountain gate and the name of a temple. T'ien-chu has connections to the Jade Emperor, the most important Chinese deity. There is a connection to all things under Heaven and on earth. There is unity, balance, yin and yang. Su Shih is drawing in the entire universe in a few simple lines and showing unity and opposition. Dwelling in T'ien-chu is an old dharma master, one who understands the correct workings of the natural world. Su Shih goes on to describe the dharma master, and admits that he doesn't understand this bird-like figure, but what's important; what draws the whole imagery together is what he writes of this dharma master's eyes. Just looking into them makes one feel fresh and pure, as if all one's baneful vexations have been cleansed.

We all have things that make us feel alive. That make us feel like we're more complete. Like we're better people. Like everything will be all right. For some, it's a person. For others, a song. Others still, it's an environment. We seek comfort and absolution in these things, and to truly experience that which we so desire and need, we need to first seek our own personal dharma - that which pertains to the whole of our existence, our own yin and yang. I know how to find mine and bring it to the forefront of my consciousness and regain my equilibrium. I wish it was that simple for everyone, but it's not. Maybe it's time to reach out for that restorative method. After all, it doesn't diminish with use, so it's not as if you're saving it by using it sparingly. Use it now.

Only one who bursts with
Enthusiasm do I instruct;
Only one who bubbles with
Excitement do I enlighten.
If I hold up one corner
And you do not come back
To me with the other three,
I do not continue the lesson.

                                          - Confucius

Let me first preface this by saying that Confucius is not one of my favorite writers.  I really didn't agree with enough of his views to leave a sense of distaste in my system, but that doesn't mean that he didn't leave pearls of wisdom that have crossed oceans of time and can still give deep and personal meaning today.

I find it interesting that the sour-faced Confucius writes that he only teaches those who burst with enthusiasm and excitement.  But, that's beside the point.  He writes about people with energy and enthusiasm being the ones that he teaches and that he brings enlightenment to, and then he states that if he holds up one corner and you don't come back with the other three, he doesn't continue the lesson.  That seems very Confucius.  He's willing to teach those who really want to be taught - those who are willing to come to him.  While I personally object to this mentality about teaching, I see something deeper here, and I'm hoping that I can express it properly.

Those who are willing to seek enlightenment, who are truly willing to work at it - those will be the ones who find it.  Those who are able to assist you in finding your own enlightenment, but you have to do the work yourself.  You can be shown the way.  You can be given tools.  However, if you're not willing to take up everything else, you'll never make it to where you want to go, and that's why Confucius doesn't continue the lesson.  It's the same thing that we hear about when we talk about the American Dream.  Work harder than everyone else.  Be the "self made" individual.  Put all of your resources into succeeding.

Never mind that gathering three corners with two hands represents a difficult task.  You think about picking up a sheet and you're saying to yourself, "No, not really.  I can pick up three corners of a sheet very easily."  That's not really the point, though.  Confucius didn't write about the supplicant picking up two corners, or the opposite corner.  He didn't make it an equivalent situation, because in all honesty, it's not.  Each person is ultimately responsible for their own successes and, ultimately, their own failures as well.  Or...  Maybe not so much.

You see, upon further reflection, I realize that Confucius is also stating very clearly the terms of success, and the consequence of failure.  We hear about it all the time, and yet our eyes and ears pass on.  The consequence of failure.  Did you, in reading it, focus on that?  I know I sure don't want to.  I want to focus on success!  Sure, we'd all like an easier path, one where our excitement and enthusiasm will get us through, but it's simply not enough.  Granted, it's critically important for success, but it's just not enough, and Confucius knew it.  It burns me just a little to say it, but Confucius knew it.  We all know it.  There is no quick fix for success, and certainly not one for enlightenment.  Even my own journal that you're reading right now says, "Exploring a way to enlightenment through oneself."  I'm nowhere near there yet, but I've got three corners in hand.  Good thing it's not Confucius that has the fourth.

As of yesterday, gas prices are the highest in U.S. history—we just passed the 1981 record, even adjusted for inflation.¹ Prices could reach $4.00 per gallon in parts of the country, just in time to crimp summer vacation plans. As consumers suffer, the oil industry continues to reap the windfall—breaking profit records on an almost quarterly basis. It's outrageous!

Enough is enough. Hearings start today on H.R. 1252, a House bill that would make gas price gouging a federal crime, punishable by 10 years in prison. Speaker Pelosi has said she'll move the bill to a vote this week—if there's the two-thirds majority required to fast track the bill through the process.²

Oil company lobbyists are frantically trying to stop the bill. Your representative needs to hear from you today. Will you sign our petition asking Congress to pass the price-gouging bill—and then send it to your friends?

Clicking here will add your name:

http://pol.moveon.org/stoppricegouging/one_click_sign.pl?id=10386-7024498-0groXl&t=3

Rep Bart Stupak (D-MI), sponsor of the House bill said this of his motivation to introduce the legislation:

In April, more than two-thirds of Americans reported that their gas bills were causing financial crunches, with a full third saying it was having a "serious" impact on their families.⁴

That same month, the top two US companies, Exxon-Mobil and Chevron-Texaco, announced a combined $14 billion in first quarter profits.⁵

It seems like even the oil industry has gone too far this time, and it's time to balance the scales. The Senate passed a price-gouging measure out of committee last week, and the House bill now has over 100 co-sponsors from both sides of the aisle.

The oil industry is nervous. They've sent their lobbyists to the Hill in full force to stop—or at least weaken—these bills, and they're pulling out all the stops. The American Petroleum Institute, an industry front group of more than 400 oil and gas companies, even threatened that new laws could increase gas prices more.⁶

Enough is enough. This summer, we can stop Big Oil from profiting at the expense of American families. Can you sign the petition to ask your representative to make gasoline a price gouging a federal crime now?

 Clicking here will add your name:

http://pol.moveon.org/stoppricegouging/o.pl?id=10386-7024498-0groXl&t=4

Don't forget to pass it on to your friends—this week is an historic opportunity to send Big Oil a message that we've had enough.

Thanks for all you do.

–Ilyse, Natalie, Eli, Tom, and the MoveOn.org Political Action Team
  Tuesday, May 22nd, 2007

Sources:

1. "U.S. gas prices jump more than 11 cents," Atlanta Journal-Constitution, May 21, 2007
http://www.moveon.org/r?r=2595&id=10386-7024498-0groXl&t=5

2. "Debate on [H.R. 1252], offered by Energy and Commerce Oversight and Investigations Subcommittee Chairman Bart Stupak, D-Mich., will kick off Tuesday with a hearing in Stupak's subcommittee. It is possible that an Energy and Commerce markup will follow. But Democratic leaders might opt to bring the bill up to the floor under suspension of House rules by Wednesday."
Excerpted from National Journal's Congress Daily, Monday, May 21, 2007

3. "Lawmaker Links Gas Prices to Investments," Houston Chronicle, May 16, 2007 http://www.chron.com/disp/story.mpl/ap/fn/4810598.html

4. "As Gas Prices Rise Again, Democrats Blame Big Oil," Washington Post, May 11, 2007 http://www.moveon.org/r?r=2591&id=10386-7024498-0groXl&t=6

5. "Lawmaker Links Gas Prices to Investments," Houston Chronicle, May 16, 2007 http://www.chron.com/disp/story.mpl/ap/fn/4810598.html

6. "Lawmakers' blood pressure rises with prices at the pump," TheHill.com, May 17, 2007 http://www.moveon.org/r?r=2586&id=10386-7024498-0groXl&t=7

For those MacBook users out there, make sure you got what you paid for.

Gadget Lab - Wired Blogs.

Million-Color Myth; Apple's Not Alone Making 6-Bit Displays

       Okay, I had to redo this quiz 'cause for some reason, the user-name under which I wrote the last quiz - I can't log in under it, so I can't see any comments or check anything. So, this is the same quiz, but I'm going to ask that you take it again so I can see how well you did and what comments you might have given me. :) Thanks!


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